12.06.2012

sex with strangers

it is inordinately inappropriate to my stuck up virgo moon and staunchly decorum laden venu/saturn conjunction in libra, the sheer number of lascivious propositions I get from strangers on the internet wanting to fuck.

  ..i'm sorry, do i know you?  do you have face, or just genetalia?

i mean, i AM a scorp..  so yeah, i dig hot and sweaty..  i truly love good sex.  i need passion.....  but with a completely random stranger?  i did that shit in my 20's for the thrill of promescuity, but even then, i always felt bad about it after the fact. and with saturn in scorp, i just can stomach the idea...  the "ring leader" is watching.  i can't play that way anymore.  saturn don't play that way either..  you step out of bounds and there will be a penalty, and in this game the penalty is an STD. 

  "..hey man, wanna fool around?  here's my number _____________"

        

THAT'S HOW YOU SAY HELLO!?!?!?!?

and it's so common..  maybe not in the general population, but in gayland..  holy crap, these bitches be slutin' like the use by date be about to clock.

11.19.2012

blue eyes got my back

slipping in under cover of darkness, with zeros on the radio
to watch the sunrise under florescence, through the trees around a parking lot
a mountain of burnt red, yellows and gold at my feet
now hurry the fuck up to wait - repeat

high noon in a different parking lot, smoke in a quick minutes breeze
a helping hand from a smiling face with bright blue eyes
while simultaneously being glared at from behind
don't come at me bitch - you be blind

blue eyes got my back

collapse at dusk, and help an old woman to bed
my feet in socks, sore and tired
listening to the silence of calm
ready again for tomorrow?  -repeat

8.21.2012

scorpiis

did you not know that scorpio is a shape shifter?  we are the scorpion, the eagle, the wolf and phoenix all at the same time....  we change our skin to become which ever creature gives us the best vantage.........

scorpion to lurk in the darkness
eagle to soar above the masses
wolf to run with all the beasts of the land
and phoenix to venture to and fro the afterlife

don't dog us down because we are inexplicable.  don't presuppose anything about a scorpio either, because i will tell you flat out YOU'RE WRONG...  don't think that you know us.  don't think you can anticipate our next move.  without a shroud of mystery, we couldn't slip so easily into the depths to life YOU up......

a scorpios self preservation is one thing..  but has anyone ever noticed that we work just as hard to preserve all those around us as well?  we can't survive without the community, even as we stand off to the side and watch separately.  i don't have to stand in the middle of your world to be a part of it.  you are my world.

4.07.2012

.. their lips.

i miss playing with boys who are torn to pieces just by my breath on their lips.

3.21.2012

must get healthy

i feel gross
fat
unbalanced
lethargic and depressed
compulsive

not happy with any of it. 


time to change. 

3.13.2012

it just is

energy flow is neither positive or negative, it just is.. flowing from one side to another, in circles and swirls. ever working towards equilibrium.

just imagine the universe in complete equilibrium. nothing exists but a pale blue light and a low hum… at this moment, the vastness of all that is has become one. it instantaneously collapses back upon itself, and explodes viciously outward.. a new primordial soup to stew.

how we get to the vast equilibrium is through a balance of energy.. every transference, acute and necessary.
and to get there.. sometimes, it just is.

3.01.2012

need of companionship

i really need a massage..
in winter i use an after shower body oil to rehydrate
but, i can't reach my fucking back
it's dry
so i keep a back scratcher
but really.. i want a partner who will lotion my back
and massage the sore tissue

2.17.2012

leather maybe..

thin yet warm, in a chocolate brown.. 
worn to a pale tan on the elbows, palms and fingertips......
slightly cracked at the bicep cuff and patched with brass grommets.