i find it amusing that all the ads that roll before each webisode of Yahoo!s MANSOME [the guide to being a man] <<yes, that is the actual title of the series>> involve domestic cleaning, and star women/dishes/mops/feather dusters. The women presenters in each actual clip openly roll their eyes at the guys comments, and the guys themselves are all overly coiffed metrosexual douchebags.

boys don't need lessons on how to be men.. they need to get the fuck out of the city and use a muscle they didn't make in a gym, so their balls drop back into place. (though, i did enjoy the lesson on breaking out of a choke hold.. just in case.)

CHEERS

manscent

"When it comes to the fragrances in men's cologne, there are basically six different scent families or classifications.  These are citrus, spicy, leather, lavender, fougere, and woody.  Citrus fragrances are fresh and brisk, and often made from lemons, limes, and oranges, as well as bergamot and other fruits from the citrus family.  Spicy scents use ingredients like nutmeg, cinnamon, and cloves, or even pepper, basil, and bay oil.  Leather scents are smoky yet sweet, and are usually created from cade oil and birch tar.  Lavender scents are relaxing and peaceful, and are made from the oil of the lavender plant.  Fougere is a blend of lavender, oak moss, and coumarin, that smells like newly mown hay.  Finally, the scents in the wood family are derived from vetiver, cedar, rosewood, and sandalwood."

sex with strangers

it is inordinately inappropriate to my stuck up virgo moon and staunchly decorum laden venu/saturn conjunction in libra, the sheer number of lascivious propositions I get from strangers on the internet wanting to fuck.

  ..i'm sorry, do i know you?  do you have face, or just genetalia?

i mean, i AM a scorp..  so yeah, i dig hot and sweaty..  i truly love good sex.  i need passion.....  but with a completely random stranger?  i did that shit in my 20's for the thrill of promescuity, but even then, i always felt bad about it after the fact. and with saturn in scorp, i just can stomach the idea...  the "ring leader" is watching.  i can't play that way anymore.  saturn don't play that way either..  you step out of bounds and there will be a penalty, and in this game the penalty is an STD. 

  "..hey man, wanna fool around?  here's my number _____________"

        

THAT'S HOW YOU SAY HELLO!?!?!?!?

and it's so common..  maybe not in the general population, but in gayland..  holy crap, these bitches be slutin' like the use by date be about to clock.

blue eyes got my back

slipping in under cover of darkness, with zeros on the radio
to watch the sunrise under florescence, through the trees around a parking lot
a mountain of burnt red, yellows and gold at my feet
now hurry the fuck up to wait - repeat

high noon in a different parking lot, smoke in a quick minutes breeze
a helping hand from a smiling face with bright blue eyes
while simultaneously being glared at from behind
don't come at me bitch - you be blind

blue eyes got my back

collapse at dusk, and help an old woman to bed
my feet in socks, sore and tired
listening to the silence of calm
ready again for tomorrow?  -repeat

scorpiis

did you not know that scorpio is a shape shifter?  we are the scorpion, the eagle, the wolf and phoenix all at the same time....  we change our skin to become which ever creature gives us the best vantage.........

scorpion to lurk in the darkness
eagle to soar above the masses
wolf to run with all the beasts of the land
and phoenix to venture to and fro the afterlife

don't dog us down because we are inexplicable.  don't presuppose anything about a scorpio either, because i will tell you flat out YOU'RE WRONG...  don't think that you know us.  don't think you can anticipate our next move.  without a shroud of mystery, we couldn't slip so easily into the depths to life YOU up......

a scorpios self preservation is one thing..  but has anyone ever noticed that we work just as hard to preserve all those around us as well?  we can't survive without the community, even as we stand off to the side and watch separately.  i don't have to stand in the middle of your world to be a part of it.  you are my world.

.. their lips.

i miss playing with boys who are torn to pieces just by my breath on their lips.

must get healthy

i feel gross
fat
unbalanced
lethargic and depressed
compulsive

not happy with any of it. 


time to change.