6.26.2011

Dear S,



    Listen to your wife, brother and sister.  be gentile with the next blow..  you don't want to break me completely.
                                                    -r

6.21.2011

la dieta blanca

así estoy: el primer día del verano.

el sol sonríe con alegría...
la brisa sopla suave con caricia;
y escuchnse todos a lo que cantan los pinzones...
que bella las notas.

pero..
..dieta blanca.

pobrecito mío.
  
arroz sin sabor.  
plátanos verdísimos. 
un pedazito del pollo hervido... 
sin sal.

y agua, y agua, y agua

odio la dieta blanca.  






6.18.2011

with the retrograde over, a lot of us are feeling the wheels begin to turn again.  all the things that have been halted and rehashed for the past few months are slowly making headway.  i think it's great!

my saturn placement is awesome (if i can brag for just a minute).  9th house libra, conjunct venus and jupiter (plus a cap asc)..  this has given me a deep sense of morality and values that i am proud of.  the world intrigues me, because the system and methodology of our culture are blatantly apparant in my eyes (and its fascinating).

i like the practicallity saturn brings to the table when venus wants to make something pretty.  i see an elegance in simple and structured beauty, and have honed my creative abilities under his watchful gaze.  form follows function in my design book, and there is an eloquence of perfectly melded style and purpose i strive for in most everything i do.

always prepared for anything, saturn has made me an eager boyscout ready to take on the whole world with all the acutriments i could ever possibly find use for.

it is like second nature, and brings me great satisfaction (jupiter), to teach and instruct (any and every subject i am fluent in).

i revel in the idea of picking apart philosophy and analyzing particulars to better understand the whole.
saturn keeps me on track, and has always taught me well.  i am grateful for him. 


6.16.2011

make me so mad..

i project my frustrations unto others.. they are almost always completely unfounded in reality, and more often than not wrongly directed at my mother. every time it happens i feel awful after the fact, but i know there will eventually be something else that will make me want to blame her for every ill.


leo north node in the 8th, square scorp sun/merc in the 10th and chiron in the 4th. (chiron loosely opposes my sun/merc, but it very tightly squares the nodes). my north node is also trine with my hardest aspect (personally), sag neptune/mars in the 12th. there must be some good to come from that manifestation, but.. i don’t see it.

6.13.2011

fuck you mold

airborne allergen index = through the roof

i haven't been able to breathe for days.... 

 MORE DRUGS   MORE DRUGS!!!

 

6.12.2011

sign by element

i think of each sign allegorically:

aries: a flash fire; bright and quick..
taurus: fertile black soil; soft yet durable
gemini: a warm tropical breeze; playful and spritely
cancer: a high mountain lake; cold yet clear
leo: bonfire, like a signal light blazing through the night; massive and comanding
virgo:  millions of grains of sand; plyable, but hard to hold.
libra: the trade winds; for all that flows in one direction, thusly shall return back to the other side.
scorpio: the deepest ocean trench; concealed within the darkness hide a zillion unknown creatures.
sagittarius: soft smoldering embers; keeping everyone warm, and making sure the life of the hearth never goes out
capricorn: sedementary rock; layer upon layer as thick and hard as can be.. the structure of our earth
aquarius:  ozone; highly excitable, far above the rest.. not held down or controled by the forces of others.
pisces: the living layer of the oceans; churning with waves..