scorpiis

did you not know that scorpio is a shape shifter?  we are the scorpion, the eagle, the wolf and phoenix all at the same time....  we change our skin to become which ever creature gives us the best vantage.........

scorpion to lurk in the darkness
eagle to soar above the masses
wolf to run with all the beasts of the land
and phoenix to venture to and fro the afterlife

don't dog us down because we are inexplicable.  don't presuppose anything about a scorpio either, because i will tell you flat out YOU'RE WRONG...  don't think that you know us.  don't think you can anticipate our next move.  without a shroud of mystery, we couldn't slip so easily into the depths to life YOU up......

a scorpios self preservation is one thing..  but has anyone ever noticed that we work just as hard to preserve all those around us as well?  we can't survive without the community, even as we stand off to the side and watch separately.  i don't have to stand in the middle of your world to be a part of it.  you are my world.

.. their lips.

i miss playing with boys who are torn to pieces just by my breath on their lips.

must get healthy

i feel gross
fat
unbalanced
lethargic and depressed
compulsive

not happy with any of it. 


time to change. 

it just is

energy flow is neither positive or negative, it just is.. flowing from one side to another, in circles and swirls. ever working towards equilibrium.

just imagine the universe in complete equilibrium. nothing exists but a pale blue light and a low hum… at this moment, the vastness of all that is has become one. it instantaneously collapses back upon itself, and explodes viciously outward.. a new primordial soup to stew.

how we get to the vast equilibrium is through a balance of energy.. every transference, acute and necessary.
and to get there.. sometimes, it just is.

sometimes

i just love me some beyonce

JWH-018 (1-pentyl-3-(1-naphthoyl)indole)

not good for you

need of companionship

i really need a massage..

in winter i use an after shower body oil to rehydrate

but, i can't reach my fucking back

it's dry

so i keep a back scratcher

but really.. i want a partner who will lotion my back

and massage the sore tissue