.. their lips.

i miss playing with boys who are torn to pieces just by my breath on their lips.

must get healthy

i feel gross
fat
unbalanced
lethargic and depressed
compulsive

not happy with any of it. 


time to change. 

it just is

energy flow is neither positive or negative, it just is.. flowing from one side to another, in circles and swirls. ever working towards equilibrium.

just imagine the universe in complete equilibrium. nothing exists but a pale blue light and a low hum… at this moment, the vastness of all that is has become one. it instantaneously collapses back upon itself, and explodes viciously outward.. a new primordial soup to stew.

how we get to the vast equilibrium is through a balance of energy.. every transference, acute and necessary.
and to get there.. sometimes, it just is.

sometimes

i just love me some beyonce

JWH-018 (1-pentyl-3-(1-naphthoyl)indole)

not good for you

need of companionship

i really need a massage..

in winter i use an after shower body oil to rehydrate

but, i can't reach my fucking back

it's dry

so i keep a back scratcher

but really.. i want a partner who will lotion my back

and massage the sore tissue

leather maybe..

thin yet warm, in a chocolate brown.. 
worn to a pale tan on the elbows, palms and fingertips......
slightly cracked at the bicep cuff and patched with brass grommets.